word for january:
anguish
- grandma passed away
- blindsided with a breakup
- learned he lied about his feelings to me
- had multiple key speakers cancel for a conference i’ve planning for 10 months
i hope january gets all the bad things out of its system, because i can’t handle it. every day, i think i couldn’t hurt anymore, but i have certainly been proved wrong. i feel like such a fool for investing so much love and energy into a relationship that was carelessly tossed aside.
anguish is the word for january. i sleep fitfully. it’s so hard to push myself to get out of the bed every morning. my heart aches.
bottomless, difficult despair.
